Archive for September, 2009

Arani

September 29th, 2009

Arani

out of the ash
I rise with my red hair
and I eat men like air

– Silvia Plath, Lady Lazarus

You are no doubt that ancient gift of fire –
the match head’s dream, the lingering between
2 shards of flint whenever they would kiss.

It took a titan’s grip to rescue you
(as subtle as the breath before a word)

from mountain’s peak to cobbled streets, to live
on log, on wick, on peat. My dozing hand
is all the distance we will need defeat;

my middle knuckle propped against your thigh.
I swear I live entirely in this
small space we share, no colder than Efreet.

My heart, the jealous beast, it beats. No chance
outdone, it chugs my blood like gasoline
and hums and hums the pitch of earthquakings.

My kindled universe – I am the field
and you are every fire of Ragnarok.


I really like where this poem ended up / the character it assumed. it’s really begging for a rewrite to get the tone of voice more even, or even into some steady progression.

[on a one-ton temple bell]

September 27th, 2009

on a one-ton temple bell
a luna moth folded in sleep
is spared from the tremble
and treble of its toll
for at least another night
the moon is the only man here
and he is too old to care
about brass or beauty
only the cold that will soon
gild his bones

[a heel left]

September 21st, 2009
[a heel left]
   after Creeley

   A heel left
next to a tree
like used
tissues or cigarettes
that aren't litter if left
in dirt.
   Not toppled
to its side nor capsized
heel over head,
it sits straight
as a dachshund told to
wait, heel.
   It's turned perfectly
north.  The soil
about it shows no tracks
of any shoe, left
or right.  There was
no foot inside;
the wearer slipped
back and away, -- first heel
then toes, pointed --
pinched the outsole, and placed
it aside.
   It's a right
since the toes
start off high then
curve in that
way.  The medial
and insole are unslumped as
glass (the lost
slipper) yet are,
perhaps, too hot
to touch; the leather
persuaded pliable
by the sun.  A buckle,
single,
holds a strap mockingly
across the vamp.
   Without a back, this heel
is a mule
held on without bands,
only the push
of a walking foot, constant
and forward.  Behind it
crawl 2 spines of smoke.
   The right more curled, the left
17
minutes taller.

rules

September 16th, 2009

old rule of Tae Kwon Do: never come to class thirsty.
new rule of Tae Kwon Do: always come to class hungry.

prerequisites

September 15th, 2009

it, unfortunately, became obvious yesterday what is needed of me in the near future. I need to schedule time in my day to read, write, study, and reflect. it needs to be a routine, like exercise or watching America’s Got Talent or like brushing my teeth. caveat: any work done on the subway is not considered work.

Theotokos

September 14th, 2009

Theotokos

Mother, the ring and wrinkles in
her voice are prima facie.
All else after,
symphony or stammer,
is written to her clef.
She quotes scripture
and we bind them to our hearts
simply because she is the giver,
like a habit for mathematics
or of pouring milk before cereal.
She is gravity, self-evident,
without need for rhetoric
to command her honor.

The immaculate heart of
Mary, mother of god,
is shown in a spotlight of halo
though always grotesque,
gashed and bleeding
and of the body.
The names of apostles
have abandoned their mysticism
and are instead tributes to grandfathers
and uncles. All roads
lead back to somebody.
The belly, its unwashed hunger,
is a terraformer, an artisan atomic.
Its product is a machined god
based in body and blood.

Even the body is a tyrant.
A muscle the size of a fist
beats out promissory notes.
Some never figure out
the breath or idea
to jockey its tempo.
Even with love, god of the heart, god of
Paris and of Dido, we all forget
how easy it was to scribble on paper
with boxes marked Yes or No.

Acclimate

September 14th, 2009

Acclimate

The first ride is blinding.
Every surface from bay to beach
to boardwalk seems coated in silver
so the sun, first yellow then white
as on a kernel of sweet corn,
has no other home but the eyes.
The windows can’t be made
of anything but quartz,
so tolerant they are of light.
This must be the opposite of blindness;
not seeing but only seeing white.
One might be lucky to find
a herd of clouds or a pause
in the naked framework of the bridge
where enough support beams converge
to give shade, though crisscrossed
like the arms of neighboring pines.

Only on the second ride,
not the return trip but the tomorrow
or the next week ride,
can one spot the details.
The bay is quilted in waves,
patterned as a bolt of hounds-tooth.
The seats, once slippery from gloss,
are scratched with the epics
and artwork of vagrants.
In the east, there are buildings
of course dwarfed by perspective
but only half hidden in the blare
of their own window-shine.
The repeat commuter can pick out
the grit of the walls, the smudges
on the glass. The wood
in the pier has rotted to wool.

When the act of the sun
setting perfectly between 2 columns
of the opposite bridge in the distance
is no longer a miracle of luck or labor,
there is still the airport to watch.
A departing plane makes such an angle
with the earth that it seems a trout,
25 tons and silver banded,
hooked by the nose and yanked.
If passengers could step outside
the cabin and see the gravity of their flight
they would feel fools for paying for tickets.

The high school student, named Terrail,
rides the train but only from the south end
to the north end of the island.
Below him, his barrio is dressed
in chip bags and soda cans.
If he listens to fast loud music,
empty of silence and pregnant with power chords,
it is only to whitewash the gunshots.
When he’ll commute across the bay
for college, he’ll learn the beauty
of the little and the large things
around him.